i shouldn't even be blogging right now. but it seems to be that i'd rather do ANYTHING other than read my notes. well i'm trying, its just that i progress at a very very slow pace.

i really don't like exams, because well, they're so vague, and half the time you don't know what exactly you're meant to study for. well you kinda do, but then it's that you have to study for EVERYTHING.

i'd much rather do assignments and essays over this. seriously. at least you know what you're doing, writing and personally i think you learn more through essays, with all that 'research' you gotta do. and i don't like sitting here feeling guilty either, the weather is so nice outside, blue skies and lotsa sunshine, but i'm stuck in my 3x4m bedroom.

ha i actually don't know how big my room is. but you feel guilty for going out, and well i guess after this week it should be okay, i've only got 3. one on the 11th, 12th and then 19th, so after 12th ill kinda be a bit more yay.

so i've procrastinated enough, not really, i can't really sit still and do work anyways, i feel like watching tv, one more day till 'desperate housewives', and in the mean time, ill sit with 'gary unmarried' great comedy :)

i think i should be a crime scene investigator when i grow up

because i over analyse WAAAAAAAAAY too much. i can take one little box and turn it into a box of mysteries and possibilites. good for story telling i guess, not so good for everyday life.

i'm back to that period where i can't really sleep well. whether or not it's because of pre-exam subconscious stress or that i'm really anxious about certain things happening right now.

it sucks because i remember mid-year exams how i couldn't sleep properly. i'd end up sleeping around 5am even though i went to bed hours earlier, and have to listen to birds chirp, and they can get kind of annoying.

so today's a friday, and there's two days till monday. i guess there's quite a bit happening this month. life and death situations, not really but i like to over-exaggerate along with my over-analysis. 12 days till i go for my hazards haha, i think i should start preparing, i'm not sure, the pass rate is 54% so it'd be not so glamourous if i failed. but yeah, all there is to do is hope. two day break till monday, i'm not sure if i can wait.

i have been feeling extremely tired these few days. and i haven't been oversleeping, so that shouldn't be the case, but i have been sleeping earlier, which is good i guess :)

but with exams, just one week away, i feel so unmotivated, heck i don't even know if i'm considered prepared. i guess one week can do a lot anyways, so if i get motivated tmr and the rest of the 6 days, then all is well.

anyways, i've spent a lot of this week going to interviews. job interviews, which i must say have been a great experience, i mean i've definitely learnt a lot these few days and learnt more about myself and possibly how to improve in the future. of course, it's a bit early to have hoped for a reply, but i don't know if that's possibly a good or bad thing.

you can't help but definitely be anxious or nervous about a job interview. the only reason why you applied is because you wanted it badly right? if not, i guess you wouldn't care less.

i remember, my heart pounding like mad the night before my interviews. i'd be thinking over and over again what to say and all that jazz but in the end, you get a tad nervous that you let some things slip by. then what sucks is the night after it's over, you get nervous again rethinking everything that happened.

sigh, and now you just wait and wait and wait and wait and wait. that's the hard part? or is the hard part knowing the answer?

it only takes one person to say yes. <3

everyone's at it

so today, my friend went to a job orientation because she successfully passed and they decided to hire her, she starts work soon, i'm super excited for her. actually she has a few jobs, well two but i think she is happy about this one coz it seems more suited to her.

sigh i need a job.

and my other friend, she had a job on sunday too, but i think she's decided it's not the right one for her, so she quit. but STILL at least she had a job. while me, i'm still workless. major siggggggh.

it's not that i don't want one, i DO. but, i guess it's because i'm kinda picky, therefore i want something i want. but like i said, i think jobs are like relationships, you go through applying (your interest) if the other person (the employer) likes you back then they respond, if not it's game over.

you may still go shop with that company (remain friends) but in the end, its just a give and take.

if you get hired (they're interested) and if it doesn't always work out, then well, maybe it just wasn't meant to be.

HA. love my analogy.

i'm gonna study 5 hours a day

HA. okay well, that is my plan, and with it only being 5:11pm right now, technically that is still possible. originally, i wanted to start say 2 in the arvo, but then i ended up going shopping. epic fail.

since i have 3 exams, globalisation, understanding asia, and philosophy, well i've decided that i should try and dedicate 2 hrs per day to globalisation, 2 hrs to understanding asia, and 1 hr to philosophy. just because glob and uasia are closer, and only a day apart, and ill have one more week for philosophy too. woo time to get wise =D

it's just that, everytime i try and study, i feel sleepy boo :( and last nights excuse was that it was too hot to study ha. but i'll try and try and try. to look at it on a brighter side, just 20 days and i'm free for another awesome 3 mths.

but now, i'm really excited about this week. i shall not tell you why as of yet, but i'm happy that this week is happening :)

and what's more to look forward to is, britney's coming next week yay!